I’ll be writing more about it in the future (see what I did there – a reference to time?) but I wanted to share a couple of things about time and 2018 and how that has impacted my life.
2018 has not gone the way that I expected it would. I started out the year finishing up a long term substitute teacher assignment that I expected would last longer. While I agree on the reasons why they transitioned to substitute teachers who were experts in that field, it was still disappointing. If you are so inclined, add Mary Dornbos to your prayer list. She’s the teacher I filled in for and she’s still struggling with cancer.
The end of January, I had a medical procedure (more on that later) that I expected miight take a week or two to recover from. That was my anticipated time schedule based on what the doctors anticipated time schedule was.
God’s timing is different. As I’m writing this a number of months out, the recovery time has changed significantly. There looks like there will be long term, if any, recovery from some of the side effects.
That’s not the time frame that I wanted.
But God’s timing is not always our timing. And God’s ways are not always our ways.
So, as Laura Story wrote in her book, “When God Doesn’t Fix It” there is a time where you need to switch the question. You need to switch from asking, “Why God?” Or shouting, “Why God?” To asking, “How God?” “How are you going to use this, use this mess, use this pain, use what happened to your glory?” “What’s your plan?”
What’s your timing, God?
Waiting for God’s timing is hard. We want to be in control.
But the sooner we realize that we aren’t, the sooner we can hand that part over to God.
God’s timing is good. Sometimes it’s so good we can’t understand it.
Sometimes it’s so hard we can’t seem to stand it.
Sometimes the clock is facing the other direction so we can’t see his time.
What time is it? “Don’t worry, my son, I’ll take care of that.”
But what time is it? I just want to know!
“Don’t worry about what time it is, let me worry about that. Just follow my Iead.”
Okay God, you’re on.